Trust. Letting go. Giving my life to you completely. Knowing you created me and have a perfect plan for me. Knowing you're on a throne that will never parish. Knowing YOU ARE GOD and that YOU LOVE ME. Knowing YOU ARE GOD.......
Changing my focus: from waves beneath me to Your face. You are my rock. Only in You will I find rest. Only in You will I find peace. You are peace.
God, hold me. Hold me as only You can. I need You. My whole being longs for You. I need You. I want You. Nothing but You will satisfy the longings of my heart.
Be my strength. Be my love. Be my longing.
Thursday, May 22, 2014
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Learning to Trust
"Life is like a railroad track". I've heard that before. Stay on the tracks set before you and you'll experience true freedom. I thank God for the tracks set before me....tracks set before my birth. I pray I allow God to continue being my engineer. I am prone to jumping the tracks when I take over.
I'd be lying if I said my train ride has been all roses the past while. I am glad God's got the controls, cause this ride scares me from time to time. Just being honest. The last year has had a few tunnels. Okay, more than a few. And....God, my engineer, has kept my train on its tracks, only He's chosen to dim the brightness; illuminating only the necessary. And...I don't know where this train's headed. God does....but I don't. And for being a planner, this is hard. God has continued throughout this time to shine just enough light to keep us going forward...but not much more.
I am sitting alone in my living room. The house quiet. I crave the quiet, though I thank God for every minute of chaos within these walls. Chaos is life....and if its kids, puppies, home school books and all related activities I would feel lost without them. But in these times of quiet, reflection is so much easier. I need God. He is my Provider. My Creator. And He loves me. He loves my husband. He created my kids and loves them more than I ever could. Letting go of plans....that's what He's asking of me.... to trust Him with the plans. Trust Him with our future. Trust Him with our children. Trust Him with our finances. Trust Him to provide....everything. He's calling us to trust Him. Let go........
We are moving from our home....yet again. And....not unlike last year, we're still unaware of where we're going. We rented a beautiful home our first year here, and its now being sold. So....we must find a new home. I know God has plans. We've been looking, and its that one thing God's been reiterating over and over: trust. Trust Him. Letting go, and allowing Him control this. New jobs, new roles, new homes, new towns.....nothing is new to Him. This move won't be as big as our last. We're staying in the area. Its just finding somewhere to hang our hat....again. It's packing up those boxes that are still partially packed in the garage. It's changing the address...again. I feel a little weary.
But, my Lord and Savior is good. He is Love...and He never changes. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and He said He loves me. Why should I find it hard to trust that? You're right, I shouldn't. Surrender. Surrender of plans to the Master Planner. I am loved by the Master Planner. He designed me before the world began. He designed my amazing husband and gave us the marriage we have. He designed the "littles" that grace our home and expertly planned their entrances and personalities. There is no chance or coincidence to the awesomeness of His designs. If He's willing to plan and care for the smallest of cool things, why would he neglect the "big"? He sent His Son to die for me.....in my place. I have NO reason to doubt His love for me. So.....
Trust. That's what I give you tonight God. God, please help me lay it in your hands. I want to trust you. Take my concerns, my worries and allow me to trust. You are God....and I am but your child. A child that you love.
One moment at a time....through the train tunnels of North Idaho. And though its difficult, I wouldn't trade this. Thank you God.
Blessings Tonight.
Much Love,
Candis
I'd be lying if I said my train ride has been all roses the past while. I am glad God's got the controls, cause this ride scares me from time to time. Just being honest. The last year has had a few tunnels. Okay, more than a few. And....God, my engineer, has kept my train on its tracks, only He's chosen to dim the brightness; illuminating only the necessary. And...I don't know where this train's headed. God does....but I don't. And for being a planner, this is hard. God has continued throughout this time to shine just enough light to keep us going forward...but not much more.
I am sitting alone in my living room. The house quiet. I crave the quiet, though I thank God for every minute of chaos within these walls. Chaos is life....and if its kids, puppies, home school books and all related activities I would feel lost without them. But in these times of quiet, reflection is so much easier. I need God. He is my Provider. My Creator. And He loves me. He loves my husband. He created my kids and loves them more than I ever could. Letting go of plans....that's what He's asking of me.... to trust Him with the plans. Trust Him with our future. Trust Him with our children. Trust Him with our finances. Trust Him to provide....everything. He's calling us to trust Him. Let go........
We are moving from our home....yet again. And....not unlike last year, we're still unaware of where we're going. We rented a beautiful home our first year here, and its now being sold. So....we must find a new home. I know God has plans. We've been looking, and its that one thing God's been reiterating over and over: trust. Trust Him. Letting go, and allowing Him control this. New jobs, new roles, new homes, new towns.....nothing is new to Him. This move won't be as big as our last. We're staying in the area. Its just finding somewhere to hang our hat....again. It's packing up those boxes that are still partially packed in the garage. It's changing the address...again. I feel a little weary.
But, my Lord and Savior is good. He is Love...and He never changes. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and He said He loves me. Why should I find it hard to trust that? You're right, I shouldn't. Surrender. Surrender of plans to the Master Planner. I am loved by the Master Planner. He designed me before the world began. He designed my amazing husband and gave us the marriage we have. He designed the "littles" that grace our home and expertly planned their entrances and personalities. There is no chance or coincidence to the awesomeness of His designs. If He's willing to plan and care for the smallest of cool things, why would he neglect the "big"? He sent His Son to die for me.....in my place. I have NO reason to doubt His love for me. So.....
Trust. That's what I give you tonight God. God, please help me lay it in your hands. I want to trust you. Take my concerns, my worries and allow me to trust. You are God....and I am but your child. A child that you love.
One moment at a time....through the train tunnels of North Idaho. And though its difficult, I wouldn't trade this. Thank you God.
Blessings Tonight.
Much Love,
Candis
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
A Summons of the Heart
You said, "Follow Me". You said, "Fear Not". You said, "I will Never leave You". You said, "I have Summoned You, and You are Mine". You said, "Let Go". You said, "Come".
You said................
"My Daughter, I am waiting". "I am waiting for you....patiently waiting". "I am pursuing...you.... I want your heart". "You are my creation and I Love You."
Knight in Shining Armor.... my heart yearns for you......You satisfy my Soul.......Father you bind my wounds.....Counselor, you have the Answers...are the Answers......My Heart was created to worship you, to be bound with yours. I am Nothing apart from You. You are Life Blood.
That is who you are.....and you pursue.....you chase......you don't give up......you pursue my heart....
I never leave your thoughts.....you are the answer to every need in my soul.....my heart.
You said, "Follow me"......help me Lord to Follow You. You said, "Fear Not".....help me let go of my fears....entirely. You said, "I will Never leave You"......thank you God, you have never left me. You said, "I have Summoned You and You are Mine".....I am Yours....help me give myself to you. You said, "Let Go". God.....take my life, my worries, my concerns...and help me Let Go. You said, "Come". God.....I am but a child....help me step forward one foot at a time.....my focus unwaveringly on Your Face.
You said................
"My Daughter, I am waiting". "I am waiting for you....patiently waiting". "I am pursuing...you.... I want your heart". "You are my creation and I Love You."
Knight in Shining Armor.... my heart yearns for you......You satisfy my Soul.......Father you bind my wounds.....Counselor, you have the Answers...are the Answers......My Heart was created to worship you, to be bound with yours. I am Nothing apart from You. You are Life Blood.
That is who you are.....and you pursue.....you chase......you don't give up......you pursue my heart....
I never leave your thoughts.....you are the answer to every need in my soul.....my heart.
You said, "Follow me"......help me Lord to Follow You. You said, "Fear Not".....help me let go of my fears....entirely. You said, "I will Never leave You"......thank you God, you have never left me. You said, "I have Summoned You and You are Mine".....I am Yours....help me give myself to you. You said, "Let Go". God.....take my life, my worries, my concerns...and help me Let Go. You said, "Come". God.....I am but a child....help me step forward one foot at a time.....my focus unwaveringly on Your Face.
Friday, February 14, 2014
Little Girl
My husband and kiddos left for a small trip this morning....leaving me home to enjoy a little quiet....some time in the Word and some time to reflect. As I am sitting here (in the quiet...and its a little weird and wonderful at the same time) I am thinking about things.....life.... blessings...family.......I am so blessed actually, for so many reasons, but this morning I'd like to share one. I know I share about my kids a lot...but I love them!!! God's given us a small handful of little people (Actually NOT all so little anymore). And...they are pretty awesome. They are each amazingly unique with their own gifts. I have two awesome big kids (whom will always be little though big)....and one:
Little Girl.....
Oh, how I love you....You're so precious.
The things you do....
The way you hold on to things, unashamed to dance when you're happy.
Your new Flower Girl shoes....you were SO excited.
Your first pair of 3-D movie glasses you can't seem to put down. That movie sure was fun....I don't blame you for wanting to re-live it....a little.
Your jeans....the ones you like....with the holes in the knees....that you won't let me throw away.
Your journal....always writing something....just like your mama.
Oh how precious your childhood is to me....I love your unashamed joy. You dance in the snow...squeal as we pull into Carl's Jr.....cry when you feel like it (even in Walmart) ...and love everyone you meet. You continue to wear those cool shoes though the wedding was two months ago and those 3-D glasses....well....last night you slept with them next to you. Baby girl.........oh, how I love you.
Much Love,
A Very Blessed Mama
Enjoy your blessings. That's why they were given to you. Thank you for letting me share mine!
Little Girl.....
Oh, how I love you....You're so precious.
The things you do....
The way you hold on to things, unashamed to dance when you're happy.
Your new Flower Girl shoes....you were SO excited.
Your first pair of 3-D movie glasses you can't seem to put down. That movie sure was fun....I don't blame you for wanting to re-live it....a little.
Your jeans....the ones you like....with the holes in the knees....that you won't let me throw away.
Your journal....always writing something....just like your mama.
Oh how precious your childhood is to me....I love your unashamed joy. You dance in the snow...squeal as we pull into Carl's Jr.....cry when you feel like it (even in Walmart) ...and love everyone you meet. You continue to wear those cool shoes though the wedding was two months ago and those 3-D glasses....well....last night you slept with them next to you. Baby girl.........oh, how I love you.
James 1:17
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Much Love,
A Very Blessed Mama
Enjoy your blessings. That's why they were given to you. Thank you for letting me share mine!
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
A Winter Minute
The sun shines through the window and spills across the floor. Its been awhile and I've missed it. It feels so good. The cat curled up on the bed, enjoys its rays. Outside the wind swirls the snow in small whirlwinds. Sparkling, diamonds of the winter reflecting the suns light, the ice and snow shine. It may be -2 outside, but its so beautiful, and I am glad to be on this side the window. A warm observer of God's blessing and provision.
The sun reflects off the lake below, I can see the water...choppy in the wind, yet brilliantly peaceful. A good day to be off the boat and.....observing it all from behind glass. The mountain before me: silver, crisp and sparkling. A mist hangs blissfully over it all in small wisps. Blessings.
God.....you are amazing.
Thank you.
Candis
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Happy Birthday My Little Outdoorsman
Today, the little man in my life turned 8. At 1:11am 8 years ago, God placed him in our arms and life's never been the same! And time goes so quickly. He's just like his daddy. "Mom", he asked while making his cake. "Mom, can you write 'Happy Birthday My Little Outdoorsman' on my cake?" "Well, that's quite a mouthful sweetie". "Outdoorsman" is a big word in frosting on a 13x9. He's one for big words, that little boy.
A fishing pole and some time on the lake with dad. That was his other request.
So Precious to my 'Mama's' Heart. I love him.
These feelings for him give me a small glimpse of God's feelings for me.
I am so thankful.
It makes me see things differently.
Happy Birthday My Sweet Little Outdoorsman. I pray that not only you grow to be like your daddy, but also your Father in Heaven.
I love you!!
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17
Much Love,
Hap's Mama
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